Yesterday we had jobs and money for bread. Today everything we have is a gift that I cannot repay.
Yesterday, last week, last month, I had 2 cars. They had no gas but they took us from A to B. Now my A is all alone because we have no car and no way to get to our destination. I shouldnt complain that I have to walk to safeway. Shouldnt complain that until we have our next set of wheels I dont have to find gas money. Oh and hey, we have no jobs to get to... But I'm still missing yesterday.
When I get to Tomorrow, Today will be the Yesterday. Will I miss it? Will I live all that is in me because it doesnt last very long?
Yesterday is gone forever. God kept us safe for today. Is it lack of faith if I fall apart and cry? Maybe yell and kick my feet a little?
Is it trusting to say that for a year and a half life has made it a little hard for me?
Am I being available in these tough times for God to use me?
Yesterday life was tough, today its worse.
Here's the sappy part. Yesterday I found my Mondo and today hes still with me. Not only that but I have two adorable kids that keep me sane and smiling. I still know my Jesus has got my back even if I dont know Him like I did...
I know and thank the Lord that I'm blessed.
But I wish I felt better.
|Currently how I feel.|